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[ChrisDDNB]

My 18th birthday is only a week away and its getting closer to the end of my year 12. Although I've tried to keep my mind off things i just cant seem to get over the fact that
Im not going to enjoy my birthday and Im not at all going to enjoy schoolies.(end of year12/secondary college celebrations)

I should be out at parties, drinking, meeting girls but Im not, instead I feel like Im wasting one of the best parts of my life (which i am).
The fact that i am currently and will be missing out on things i should be experiencing, and that i will never be able to again is doing my head in. Not only that but Im starting to get anxious about my birthday now that its so close, everyone will be asking me what will you be doing for your 18th, wheres the party going to be, WHAT how can you not be having a party for your 18th birthday.
Too many thoughts right now, just want to sleep.

[ShortHair]

I feel like Im wasting one of the best parts of my life (which i am).
The fact that i am currently and will be missing out on things i should be experiencing, and that i will never be able to again is doing my head in.

Key word there is "should." Who decided that you're now in the "best part of your life"? If you're not able to enjoy it, you're just making it worse by trying to live up to false expectations.

When you have put your worst problems behind you, that's the best part of your life. I had to wait a long time, but I'm finally able to feel good about simple things. You can too.

[Baby Face]

Yes that is definitely a lot of "should be doing" and not enough of "I want to be doing" What do you actually want to do for your birthday? For my last birthday I'm pretty sure I did what I do everyday working during the day and then playing video games and talking to a friend on skype in the evening. It was one of the best birthdays I've ever had because I've stopped worrying about what everyone else thinks I should be doing and just doing what I want.

[thefalseprophet]

I know the feeling. Hearing or seeing people living their lives, while you rot all by your lonesome, can be tough. Luckily, there's escapism. It's the easy way out but it does feel "gratifying", sometimes. It's funny because we all sit here and whine about how much our lives suck but do we ever even try to fix it or do we just wait for it to fix itself? Most of us do the latter. What a pity. Too scared, we all are...

[ChrisDDNB]

@babyface that's what I've been trying to tell myself, but what i want to be doing isn't what i enjoy doing (the things listed above). although I've accepted who i am, i still cannot seem to accept that Im missing out on key parts of my life which your 18th birthday unarguably is.
and @thefalseprophet, you could say we sit here and whine without trying to improve but what I've found so far is the only real cure for SA is time. Almost everything else has just put me a step back really. And yeah that's pretty much how i feel about things.

[Dave]

I know I wasted my childhood and young adulthood. I know how you feel. I have partied before, but not like I've always wanted. But then again you can't let it take you down. Yeah you didn't do all the stuff you wished you did as a young man, but you can make up for that by living your life and having as much fun as you can.

[Ben]

One of my friends always tells me you should do what you want to do versus what others want you to do. If parties and that aren't your interest, than why bother going or planning them.