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Delph · Anxious Poster Joined: 10 Mar 2008 Posts: 22

its 3:30 am, im drunk, stoned, and very depressed. I think ive hit an all time low. I have so many thoughts running through my head right now, about my life and their all negative. I keep thinking about were my life is going to be in 20 years and what ill have to show for it. i feel so alone and worthless.

i really need to talk to someone about my problems but i dont know who to turn to. i live with my two best friends in an apartment and seeing them succeed in life and making tons of friends makes me feel like shit because i cant do any of that. i want to talk them about my social anxiety but im not sure if they will understand or not. i wonder why im still their friend or they might not be my friends at all.

this is going to seem weird but i feel like this is all my father fault. every tells me im just like him, but i dont want to be. hes a little background. he grew up with 7 sisters and he was the only son, so i guess thats were he got his shyness from, living with 7 sisters must have been hell. he has never really talked to me about life, he just tells me what i shouldnt be doing hes never given me any real advice on anything. ive been pretty much raised by my mom but all she does is pamper the shit out me and i hate it sometimes.

im going to stop now ive said enough. time to listen to some RHCP.

sometimes i feel like i dont have a partner
sometimes i feel like my only friend
is the city i live in
the city of angles
lonely as i am together we cry

Bravetailor · Calm Regular Joined: 18 Mar 2008 Posts: 55

Geez, this board simply isn't very active, is it? I see multiple threads where I get the last word and they only last about 3 or so replies.

There's another board that has tons of action, but I find it has too much noise. You can only take so much sobbing and self pity before you wanna close your eyes and turn off the computer.

Anyway, as for your topic, you must not give in to prolonged self pity. And don't blame your parents for what you are, even if you're right in some way. Yes, it is quite probable that they have helped shape you into what you are but you have your own mind and your own arms and legs so inside, you always have the power to make your own decisions.

You say you don't have many friends and your friends are doing better than you. That's fine. You aren't them. You want to get to their level someday, but you have to accept the fact that you have to work at it and it won't come as easy to you. It isn't fair and it's a raw deal, but this is the reality we have to face. Think of it as a challenge. I think everyone, inside, has some competitiveness in them but our battle is trying to bring it out in the open to help motivate us into action.

I'm almost 30 years old, and if I knew I'd be where I am back when I was your age, I'd probably be pretty disappointed. Still, I find no productive reason to feel sorry for myself about it. I have a challenge that I have to overcome, and it's taken me a long time, in VERY small steps, but the point is, self-pity will just drag you down further. If you're feeling down on yourself, find a private hobby as an outlet.

Do you draw? Write? Play video games? Shoot hoops? Do any of those things you like regularly, and keep taking small steps socially. Attend seminars, groups, join a club, etc,.

Josh · Posted: Sat March 29, 2008 Post subject:

Delph · Anxious Poster Joined: 10 Mar 2008 Posts: 22

there really isnt a time that im not drunk or stoned, mostly stoned, thats part of my problem. I have no motivation to do anything even when im not stoned. i feel separated from everyone even my own friends that ive known for close to 10 years.

i dont think i have the ability to have fun and not give a ****. im always afraid of what i might do or say, so i end up not doing or saying anything and i think that scares people. right now im sitting in my room while my roommate, two kids from downstairs, and 4 random chicks are getting wasted and just shooting the shit, i cant do that. i wish i wasn't such a robot

Delph · Anxious Poster Joined: 10 Mar 2008 Posts: 22

this board is really slow does anyone know of any other forums i could also post in

Angie · Posted: Tue April 01, 2008 Post subject:

Delph · Anxious Poster Joined: 10 Mar 2008 Posts: 22

yea i guess that song is a little depressing. i dont really enjoy their new stuff as much as the older songs. By The Way is one of the best albums ever, Dont Forget me! and Venice Queen.

im not to sure about writing in a journal it seems like more of a chick thing. i really just want to find a person i can talk to about my personal feelings. i live with my two best friends but i dont know if they will understand my feelings.

Angie · Posted: Fri April 11, 2008 Post subject: