heaven Terrified Newbie

Joined: 15 Jan 2008 Posts: 5
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Posted: Tue January 15, 2008 Post subject: hello |
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hi, im 19 years old. i found out i had social anxiety just over a year ago. i am in my 2nd year at uni. right now at this moment it is 11.30 at night, i am home alone all my housemates have gone out. im all dressed up with nowhere to go. after weeks of them begging me to go out, i finally plucked up the courage, got all ready, then just at the last minute told them i couldnt do it. my lessons started again today, new semester, and a friend that i rely on to go to lessons with txt me to say she wasnt going to lesson, so i sat in my room and cried my eyes out cos there was no way i could go to lesson on my own. i dont blame my friend, she doesnt even know about my SA, but i am now relying on her to get a good education. i went a whole weekend without bread and milk, cos i was on my own, and i couldnt go to the shop to buy anything, even though it is literally at the top corner of the street.
i just started counsellin in november, and dont know yet whether it is helping me or not, but i will keep with it, cos its all i have at the moment.
its just nice to know that there are people out there who are going through the same thing. i dont mean that i am glad you are suffering, cos i would not wish it on my worst enemy, but just glad that i am not alone.
sorry for ranting, thx for listening. |
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